New town, new home, new job, new hobby and two exams that decide over my occupational future.
And all of this is happening in an extremly short amount of time.
I am not going to leave the country, I am not leaving my usual socioenvironment, I am not graduating.
BUT the thing that makes all these changes so groundbraking is the fact that every single change that I am facing, is solving huge problems that I had to cope with over the past years. And all of a sudden, life is giving me the opportunity to change all of this practically over night. And this scares the shit out of me.
The past month I have been doing nothing but sitting in our university library and hammering japanese kanji in my head. But due to underutilization, it's getting harder and harder to focus.
Fear made me sitting at my desk staring at ideographs instead of keeping the balance between action and studying. Fear made me treat people unfair, fear made me sit down and start thinking about me and what I am making out of me. Fear made me extremly, extremly impatient.
Yesterday I realized, I started to fear practically everything.
And then she came: Minju Kim, the winning Designer of the H&M Design Award 2013.
As I am not following the recent happenings in the fashion industry, I apologize for being almost a year too late for that. I am pretty sure I wouldn't have appreciated her appearance as I do today, but I would have loved her collection anyway.
There she is, simply doing what she loves. Breathing life into her drawings, knowing who she is and being full of inspirations and ideas. When you hear her talking, you see her and her designs being one. She brings her pure self to life and I admire that so hard. I immediately understood why the Jury chose her, not just for her remarkable collection but for her capability of using herself as her biggest inspiration.
I know it's a funny coincidence that her main inspiration was a japanese Mangaka and I have to admit that her designs make the small Otaku-corner of my heart beat a lot faster.
Her subsequent collection called 'Be Cover', which she presented at the SHOW2013 of the Antwerp Academy of Fine Arts was the final evidence, that my mind wasn't just impaired by my emotions: Her fashion is amazing and I admire her designs. And her drawings!
I can't wait to see her H&M collection, I already decided that my complete Wishlist will have to wait in line because my desire to have some of her pieces in my closet is unbearable! My No.1 piece of choice is her jaquard coat from her winning collection 'Dear My Friend'.
But above all, I love her for taking away all my fears. Reminding me, that simply doing what you love gives you the faith life and how you are living it.
So next week, I am finally able to do what I love. I can live where and how I want it, I can ride my bike how I love it, i can dress up how I love it, I can sleep, eat, work and love how I love it.
And no bad circumstances or outcomes can take that away from me, I simply want to do what I love.
I finally have a home for my heart and I am incredibly grateful to get the opportunity to do so.
Until then, I'll keep working hard for my exams.
Is that what you call a Muse? Maybe.
Anyway, Thank you, Minju Kim!
Love,
pwp
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