Dressing Up; Overly Attached

Sometimes I hate my emotional attachment. 

I know that it helped me a lot and that I'm proud of being what I am, but right now I simply hate it. 

Recently yesterday I binge-watched 'Life Behind Bars' Season 3 and it brought me to tears - twice.

I absolutely rediscovered my love for gravity mountainbiking this year, with all the ups and downs that I had to face, but right now I just really hate myself for being so overly attached. 

I want to post videos and pictures the whole day, clean my bike with a toothbrush to make it really dirty right after, I want to work my ass off to affort my second and even a third bike, I want to watch the leaves falling on the trails, I want to ride my bike every mothereffin day and it overcharges me unbearably.

It literally feels like I hopelessly fell in love, I wear my rose-colored glasses 24/7 and I forget about everything else because I'm so ridiculously attached to my stupid hobby.

I have to finish uni and start my bachelor thesis but I'm so hungry for offseason, I want to set up a whole workout plan, do yoga, build up muscles and endurance, improve my technique and lose my fears. I have so much energy in me and I don't know where to go with it - why don't I feel the urge to type the shit out of my bachelor thesis? Even right now I would have to finish my new lesson plan instead of blogging. Damn it.

I hope this phase is gonna be over soon because I feel like my little heart can't bear this for too long. Up until then I'm gonna show everybody my newfound favourite sweater and let everybody know that I'm kind of an objectophile. Damn it! Stupid.

sweater: Threadbare, turtle neck: C&A, belt: Esprit, pants: Thrifted, shoes: Zara

Love,

pwp